flightyou mentioned vulnerability but that's myflight by a-secret-key
weakness. i can wash anything off, no lady
macbeth. i'm all copper and silver and
anything that conducts. the current is my currency,
soon as it's vintage, and i'm always fast.
free will is real so you
can't touch me, and
i'm a gambler
(don't remind me tomorrow if i'm grey)
but i'm invincible. someday,
i'll withdraw it all in words,
when it's sluggish and slighty off. like shifting
gears, i can skip a few on my way back
down, and i barely feel it. that's the truth.
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lap at my eyes like a camera lens. and that's such a dead
simile, i know, but sometimes it just
fits and besides, i'm too lazy to think of another.
did you see that? the blackbird moves across the lawn, a clot.
it picks its way through the blockages, digested flame
and burnt-up blossom, noise on my green. i watch
for a while and then i just
close my eyes.
i never knew what this meant,
still don't. the world is swollen. got a word for that?
Sea poem, Maysuch a sleek thing, the sky,Sea poem, May by a-secret-key
inside your mouth like a mist. your throat--
i concentrated the best i could.
my shoes clattered the rock-- it felt good to climb,
like i'd been somewhere.
i shut my eyes and tried noticing
--thought i'd see a glimpse, an eye-stain or a
linger, but you'd been there long enough for your skin to peel back, so
why was i wanting a handshake?
the sea was one thing, the cave another. a smooth
belly of rock, not much else. it dribbled stones out
onto the beach, a bodied white noise that bothered me. i looked so hard,
kept my face to the light and my eyes
shut against it. that's glory, i suppose,
once you boil the whole thing down and look at the bones of it,
which i did. that's what i'm trying to tell you.
sometimesi used to think this was the easy part:sometimes by a-secret-key
having something, keeping it. turns out
i'm no good with keeping--
just taking, just moving on. it's not all
bad, though, and
in the end i guess i like that so much of this
is down to me. effects
don't always have causes. sometimes
we just get tired-- tea stained
lantern sunlight. do you ever get
home is tiny in the distance. its lights?
i can barely see them--
corner of the eye,
they burst with tiny needles.
a nice thought, i guess, but maybe that's just me-- sometimes i wish
all light was firelight. it's silly, yeah,
but i'm young enough to still get why it's good
to be tangible.
sometimes my head is cotton-stuffed
and somewhere far away from caring. but then
sometimes it's just my head. i'm beginning
to get used to that--
sometimes i even fall asleep.
the tortillas are burningand the porcelain Virgin on the front porch doesn't have a facethe tortillas are burning by Nestalgica
and Joseph doesn't have a dick and the mail carrier's
bringing bad news from home that makes you cry
the same way you did when they called you Little Faggot
and poured hot oil on your arms and mámi just sat there
praying the rosary while you scarred over she was full of grace
and her hands were small on the beads "Dios te salve María" she said
over and over until pápi knocked Mary over with his fists
swinging at you (that was your fault too) while you ran
all the way across the border where you can flush the toilet paper
where Joseph doesn't have a dick yet but he will
once you can afford it where the chiles aren't as spicy
and the gringos are just as racist and Mary's face isn't full of roses
but her arms are full of scars like rose petals like the ones that fell
from the poncho and stained it with her image like the kids tumbling
down Tepeyac hill where she and Juan Diego made love
and she gave birth to Me
Indecency Seduced Captivation"I'm drowning in my tears." What a cliche line.Indecency Seduced Captivation by atlantic-lungs
But the authenticity doesn't have a rescue boat to save me
My brittle mentality is foreseen throughout the crisp strands of
my hair that struggle to remain on my scalp and not even the
moisture from the enclosed nautical puddles can restore them.
Despondency is riding my emotions as if it is on a
roller coaster and it has lost its velocity to return to the top.
And I can't ask you to save me, because you're a part of the
reason I've transformed from a thunderstorm into a hurricane.
You have me incarcerated in your own arms - - it's what I've
always longed for - - yet you're simply doing it since you know you'll
lose me to him soon.
They are yanking at my confidence until it's just a mere memory I can